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Sunday 30 September 2007

30th September 2007

My eyes felt like swelling since yesterday..argument...not a good thing...dun talk to me so harsh anymore le...i hold myself back that time d...i guess it's the same that u held back today went im in the train talking bout the asshole who pushed my mum..

Anyway,wanna say sorry and apologies for scolding u n talking loudly or harshly to u...felt bad...many times i wan voice this out in front of u but at the moment i want spill out,seems like something holding me back...then i swallowed back those words...

i love u dearly...dun say u dun feel anymore or i dun love u at all...cuz i really do love u and when u say no,it's...i dunno how to describe the feeling...since u said it loud and clear and so assuring...it's like u overpowered me with ur saying...and im voodoo-ed to "i dun love my hubby~~..."

hubby un le and say wont call so frequent...thanks ya hubby...in those situation,i also dun know wat to do...im 50-50..i love u hubby...i want talk to u long long too de...sometimes i miss u reli much...but at the situation,i hav to hold on a while first...and say,it's ok...later i'll call him..n probably i'll end up messaging hubs!!

darling,i promise i'll love u more n more k?!?!muaksz!!sayang...

And whatever happened today,hubby must carefully choose friend kay?!there's one bad example d..caused much grieve and sadness to us...sort of late that u realized it now...since it was serious...but,we got thru it rite?!what shud i do if she call me in uni?!walk away?!is that wat i shud do?or walk up to her n face it like a girl...wanted to say woman...hehe!!!

Xiang is ur good friend...i can see...n i have no complications or whatsoever...cuz i can feel he's good...u muz trust me new sense ler...sense of evaluating whether a friend is good or opposite...u muz treasure him k?!i let this one of from u...i wanted to confront her n talk it out to her if i meet her...but u refused...n...i accept it since...it's real bad....but xiang different....treasure k?!i wished i'll hav such a friend one day later...seems like THE ONE haven't appeared yet....

i used to hav...in primary till sec 1 or 2 like tat...she a chinese malay...khairunnisa...i call her khai!!she's also my sis godsis..hehe!!we were so closed...but after that...i mixed with another group of fren...since we moved to different class...n our friendship got further n further...one thing which i regret...then i got close to yoon shin...but that lasted only till...i leave MGS...hehe!!but we're still frens now ler...i wish i have a friend to whom i can spill out everything....

N so far...my best friend is hubby...which is also my hubby....= )



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