7th September 2008

Best friend Hui wasn't that happy yesterday while we msn-ed..seems that her Boy isn't caring for her that much..she rant it out to Him but he got angry..so they kinda argue like tat and she was sad and crying still while msn-ing me..so gave her some thoughts and..well,way to go girl!!!= )

I learned quite some lessons from previous, previous previous and 3x previous relationships..

First - was still immature..but i like that kinda feeling..not worrying bout anything..btw,my parents din know bout us till like we parted and a yr later..haha!!

--> Things are better in a way that we don't really put much effort into it and just let it be the way it is..no worrying bout how things would turn out and..life is just so sweet and simple and free..

Second - he was good but...no further comments..haha!!

--> People make wrong decisions sometimes..whether if it's should be done or not..so,just appreciate the people around ya like you never go thru the next day..

Third - i thought he was the one..but he proved me wrong..

--> Things sometimes just go wrong and sometimes people change..for whatsoever reason there can be..adultery?new love?stressed up?bored?..it get me started, thinking sometimes, things can't go back to the way it is before..should it be let go off better or hold on to it?

Yea,those things are to be pondered..but never let it burden you..ain't that sure how things would go on now..turning over a leaf would be ideal..

Haha!!as things are the way it is now..couldn't expect more..

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Ah ya, He sms-ed me this early morning bout 3 smtg..

The contents:-

She just slept..she committed suicide by cutting herself..I felt guilty..gonna help her get over..sorry for making me worry..will explain to you when there's chance..don't wanna irritate her..This is bad for you but no choice..She saw the chat log..etc etc..need to persuade and console her so patch back with her first..don't want hurt her..don't want hurt you..

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Things won't get any better this way..

Thinking back..wouldn't he thought i would do the same damn thing when he initiate the break up!?

She just called up and said would report to police that he raped her?!
Or did it really happen?!
Why else the worrying if it did not?!
HOLY SHIT...

I'm not trusting any of this anymore..unless a miracle bestowed..yeah,that's it..

HOLY SHIT once again..HMPH~...